Here we are.

Dear River,
9 months with you have been hard and fun and enlightening. I am swept back to the day you entered this world and feel butterflies- big, strong ones. If I’m being completely honest it was pretty freaking traumatic but in the best kinda way. I’m realizing I still have so much to process about birthing you. I wonder if other women give it much thought afterwards... like really deep reflections. Or do they just keep their head down and continue going through the motions. We women are good like that. I wonder how much emotion is stored away in our bones of those first couple of weeks and months... when we are getting to know our babes. Phew... those days. Nothing is quite like it. I am your mother and I have so much to teach you. So much to tell you.

I believe in God.

I belive in dreams.

I believe that Love is the bridge.

I believe in superpowers.

I believe in Beauty as a portal

and that doors open

during golden hours.

I believe dreams come and go.

The true ones live in our bones.

Josh and I talked for hours this morning about religion, the Bible, spirituality, loving our family, finding community and how it’s all just so freaking hard to meet in the middle sometimes. We see eye-to-eye on a lot, but like any other relationship, we also have our differences- mainly when it comes to beliefs, methods and eating cake.
I live for these deep conversations about the meaning of life and what’s really at the bottom of the everything we think and do... but sometimes the rabbit hole can be scary. Which brings me to a favorite memento: LET LOVE LEAD. Let love bring you back to heart. ⋒

Together, Josh and I have journeyed through difficult, awkward, painful conversations. We’ve navigated times of disagreement, confusion and moments of misunderstandings. We’ve learned to breathe through every single triggering word or tone. I know there are more to come and I welcome them.

When we really listen and take in each other’s side of the story, compassion expands our hearts and more love comes in- filling in the holes of hurt and insecurities. It’s like our differences have in a way bonded us together through acceptance and understanding. ⋒

Relationships. Phew. The great teacher about myself. And really the universe... Bottom line: walking through differences always bring me to LOVE. Love is the guide, love is the way, love is the end. Love will take you home. ⋒

The challenge now lies in releasing control and insecurities. By letting fear move out of the way and letting Love lead, we can actually get somewhere great. If we all began to listen deep, speak truth and let Love show the way... maybe we can all be bonded together by the willingness to accept our differences and the fact that we don’t understand and that’s ok!! #unity#collectiveconsciousness #lovewins

Be still and know ⋒

One of my favorite texts from the Bible. It’s so simple, yet so powerful. And just the words I’ve needed lately to anchor into the present moment (where the magic happens). Be still and know that other forces are at play. Be still and know that you are healing. Be still and know that you are light, love, darkness, formless and everything in between. Be still and know that you are not alone. Be still and know that what you are feeling is truth. ⋒
May you take some time to enter into the deep, divine feeling place and know whatever comes up for you is exactly what you need. Trust it.