Thursday, April 27, 2023
The Bees Are Awake
"Mommy. Mom? Mom?" my four-year-old son, River, calls.
"Mmm-hmm," I murmur, wiping the sleep from my eyes as I walk toward the coffee pot.
"Are the bees awake?" he asks, concerned.
I peek outside, praying that the bees are far, far away. One . . . two, three, four. Nope, the bees are up and at 'em. Lively, buzzing from flower to flower steps away from the front door.
My mind searches like a frantic bunny hopping to and fro, looking for a thorny bush to shelter in. I need something to say other than the truth- the truth that is sure to break him into a million pieces. I can't handle that yet. I need coffee. If I'm going to deliver the truth, I have to have a side dish to soothe the heat. I can't just whip around and say point blank, "Yes, hunny, they are." I know better than that. As his mother, I do my job to meet his needs.
My mind races to create a little white lie. Something like, "Yeahhhhh, I think I see one, but it looks like he's getting sleepy. I bet if we eat breakfast, he will go away."
You know– those ridiculous statements we parents say to herd the kids in the direction we want them to go. I caught myself telling my daughter Indie yesterday "Baby, you gotta brush your teeth. You've got bugs in your mouth." Which isn't entirely false . . . microorganisms right? Still- I knew I had to paint a ridiculous picture to compel good hygiene action. I'm embarrassed that it was fear related, but I digress. Back to the bees.
You see, River is deeply terrified of bees. He was stung a few years back, but the pain remains. Me too, buddy . . . I always think.
He doesn't want to be hurt again. He wants nothing to do with the things. So he stays inside and hovers close to my leg when he has to venture out, staying on full alert.
I don't know how to help, and this bugs me. (no pun intended) I don't know what to do to ease his anxiety. I try the ole "hey buddy, don't move. Just stay really still. It won't bother you if you don't bother it."
He shrieks at the sight and hyperventilates at the sound. His nervous system can't handle it.
He's only four, and I wonder what other fears he will have to face in life. So many, I am sure of it. My mother hurt throbs thinking about this.
It makes me think about my fears, past and present. What makes my skin crawl? Ahd what helps get me through it? Of course, heights, death, and all those big-ticket fears flash through my mind, but I dismiss those. I want to go beyond the surface.- past being bitten by a shark or mauled by a bear. I reflect for a moment on the fears I'm dealing with daily like River's bees. . . Then, Ahhhhh, I discover the ouchie zone- being late, being seen as irresponsible, being scared that someone will think I'm a bad person.
Perhaps, we all have bees that we wish would go to sleep. Yep, I'd say we do.
Nothing left to do but serve some little white lies to help us cope. We can wrap around the leg of our mother, pray for bravery, and walk through the flowers shrieking, whether on the inside or echoing for the whole holler to hear.
Thursday, September 17, 2020
Virgo New Moon 2020
Happy New Moon, friends!
Tuesday, January 7, 2020
6 Life Lessons I Learned from Hiking the Appalachian Trail

THE MOUNTAINS CALL FOR A REASON
I believe the mountains call to awaken and reconnect us with our purpose. To remind us that "the world needs people who have come alive," as the author and philosopher Howard Thurman once said.
Dreamers know that we are here for a purpose. Dreamers see the value in seeking clarity regarding purpose. We want to be absolutely sure that we are on the right path- that we have intercepted the correct universal mission. But unfortunately, sometimes, this soul-seeking journey can send us into depression, analysis paralysis, and not to mention the everyday grind that is life. Things get cloudy. We get distracted, and our souls get a bit lost. This is when the Mountains Call.
There is something about being on the trail and walking forward that puts things into perspective. My brain gets rewired every time I set foot on a dirt path. I walk and climb until I get to the mountaintop, where I look out over the vast landscape and think to myself, "life is hard, but I am strong. I just have to keep moving and believe I will make it. . . I always do." I think about my past hikes and am constantly inspired to keep living the dream and gaining perspective.
Jennifer Pharr Davis also has some things to say about the "power and healing of physical forward motion" in her talk featured on National Geographic talk.
The Mountains may never call you to thru-hike, but they will call. So best have your boots ready.
FORTITUDE IS A FORGOTTEN VALUE THAT WE ALL NEED NOW.
Enduring pain and suffering is a part of trail-life. "Embrace the suck" is a famous saying on the Appalachian Trail (AT). You have to, because most of the time, it sucks. You are uncomfortable a good 90% of the time. Your muscles ache, and your feet are torn apart. The mosquitoes are relentless at times. You are downright dirty, and hiker-hunger will get the best of your emotions. The boredom of monotonous duties can and will mess with your psyche. You will want to quit. You will question why you started and what the point is. As the thru-hikers say, "No Pain, No Maine."
Joseph M Marshall III talks about fortitude in his book, The Lakota Way, as "quiet persistence." It's the "ability to take one step at a time and make the best possible use of your attributes."
Today, we are so conditioned to cushy, cozy lives. Being comfortable might just be our Achilles heel. It gets in the way of living our dreams. To live your dreams, you have to risk being comfortable. You have to be brave and overcome fears. You have to be patient. You have to stay connected to your purpose and your original intention. Above all, you have to endure with the strength of your heart and mind. You must possess fortitude. If you don't yet have enough, the journey will give it to you. So just believe and try to embrace the suck.
CLARITY OF PURPOSE BRINGS HAPPINESS
It's basic stuff in the backcountry. There is never any questioning of what needs to be done. Secure safe shelter, fire for warmth, get clean water, enjoy community. These are the priorities. Everything else falls into place after the basics. In the modern world, there are so many distractions. It's hard to stay focused and connected to what matters most. Our priorities are quickly thrown all out of whack.
Being connected to the elements has a mystical way of revealing how you should approach the more complicated layers of life. One can gaze into a campfire or stare into the stars and suddenly feel a sense of "everything makes sense". I know that I have a heightened sense of intuition when I'm in nature and feel much more confident about what I want out of life. Nature grounds you to the present moment, which seems to be where the magic happens. Gratitude, fulfillment, and clarity all reside in the present.
One of my life purposes became clear to me in 2014 when I was on my thru-hike. I wanted everyone to feel the peace that I felt among the trees. I wanted to inspire everyone to connect with nature and look deeper.
CONNECTION, RESPECT, AND DEEP REVERENCE FOR NATURE
When you are in the backcountry or the deep ocean, or anywhere else, there is no question that you are a part of nature. The water, the berries, the sunshine, and the animals are family. John Muir says it best:
"Wonderful how completely everything in wild nature fits into us, as if truly part and parent of us. The sun shines not on us but in us. The rivers flow not past but through us, thrilling, tingling, vibrating every fiber and cell of the substance of our bodies, making them glide and sing. The trees wave and the flowers bloom in our bodies as well as our souls, and every bird song, wind song, and; tremendous storm song of the rocks in the heart of the mountains is our song, our very own, and sings our love."
OUR TRUE HUMAN NATURE IS GOODNESS.
The community surrounding the Appalachian Trail should receive a gold medal in hospitality. There is a reason why people refer to the kind-hearted folk as Trail Angels. Moms and pops, veteran hikers and churches, aspiring trailblazers, and entire towns rally together to help hikers achieve their dreams. It's really that simple. We just want to help each other and see each other thrive.
I remember being in complete awe of the thru-hiker trail etiquette. Generally, whenever you meet another hiker, you stop and have a quick conversation with them. Exchanging questions like: "How is your day? What's up ahead? When did you start hiking? How far are you going? I remember daydreaming about what this would look like in the modern world. What if we made a point to stop and have a real, meaningful conversation with every person we come in contact with throughout our average day? What kind of world would that be? Well, I guess it would be a much slower pace of living. Maybe, some of us are doing that with our social media channels in some sort of evolved way. Anyway, the point is that the genuine level of care about another person's journey was high on the trail. The exchange was valued. It had a profound impact on my life. I may not be able to converse with everyone I meet each day, but I really hope that the conversations I have are full of care and meaning.
Watching my son, River, grow has only solidified that we are born so pure and innocent with a strong innate desire to do good.
NATURE AS THE ULTIMATE GUIDE FOR DREAMERS.
Like all relationships, a deep intimate connection with the natural world takes work. You must be open and patient, and willing to learn. If you put yourself in the student role and step outside- I promise nature will guide you to where you need to go. I've always been connected to nature. Growing up, my dad would often preach about passages in the Bible where it talks about the rocks crying out and the fields clapping. I felt a deep resonance with his sermons because it felt true. I would feel the tree's messages of strength and the flower's messages of comfort. I would hear the birds and watch as they dance us into a state of joy. Living on the AT affirmed for me that nature is my ultimate guide.
#god #lifelessons #appalachiantrail #nature #hiking #learning #living
Thursday, January 3, 2019
My 7 Step Approach to Climbing Mental Mountains
You may be thinking, “What are Mental Mountains?”
7 steps to Climbing Mental Mountains
Provisions you will need:
- Adequate Courage
- Willingness to Believe
- A good companion (dogs count)
- Inspiring reading material
- Journal for documenting
What you gain:
- Self Respect
- Self Confidence
- Strength of the Heart
- A big leap closer to your dreams.
- A valuable vantage point.
Step 1. Stop & Listen
Step 2. Name the inner resistance
Step 3. Route the Course
Step 4. Be your own cheerleader
Step 5. Ask for guidance
Step 6. Nourishment
Step 7. Keep Going


Mental Mountains are not just Creative Blocks. They are valuable gifts on the Self-Discovery journey!
Ahh, sweet perspective
Sunday, September 2, 2018
Talks with Leaves: Let it all go.

Woke up to falling leaves. 🍁
Lots of anxiety swirling about as we are about 4 weeks away from giving birth to our baby.
Thoughts.
So many thoughts. How am I going to run or manage my business and nurture a tiny human and give myself time to rest and heal??? We are an hour away from the birth center... will we make it in time??? Will I be strong enough?? I still don’t reaaaaallly understand how a 7- 10 lb. living thing is going to come out of me... We still have about a million and one things to do at the house... (like get hot water and install a toilet.)When will we find the time to accomplish ALL THE THINGS and still be good business owners, partners, friends and parents??? Is “life balance” a real obtainable thing? 🤔 And what the heck does life feel like / look like after giving birth? 🔮
Anyway~ the leaves had some things to say about letting it all go and trusting in the process. Thanks leaves. Praying for all my soon-to-be and new mamma friends out there. I’m riding the wave with ya sisters! Here’s to staying on top and not drowning in fears, doubts and insecurities! 🤙🏻🏄🏻♀️🤱🏻🤱🏼🤱🏽🤱🏾��🏿#wegotthis #motherhood #beinghuman#lifethoughts #talkingtoleaves#thewildunknown
Wednesday, June 28, 2017
Spirit Guide, Dandelion
My insides must look something like this. A playground with wild plants and helping spirits. 💛
When I took on the name "Dandelion" during my journey on the Appalachian Trail, I had no idea how much it would honor and reflect my soul personality.
<<<>>>Wild, Full of Wonder, Nostalgic, a friend of the wind, a symbol of Determination and Hope. <<<>>>
I've learned that Dandelions are one of the Great Creator's way of guiding us back to a place of faith. When I think about how the seeds of one plant can scatter and produce new life, peace washes over me. If little me was created with sooooo many big ideas and fascinations, it must be for a reason. I just have have to wait on the wind to guide them. Thanks to Dandelion for keeping my spirits high and for our most recent encounters on Mount Pisgah. So much yellow, happy, sunny solar plexus vibes, y'all!!! Thanks @kontomble_medicine for sharing this image.

Saturday, May 27, 2017
Spirit Guide, Moth
Greetings from God in moth form. ✨love these Messengers of hope. ✨
〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰 🦋Head toward the light your own unique way. 🦋Open your wings. You are ready to feel the sky. 🦋

Thursday, May 4, 2017
Animal Spirit: Snake
Snake Messages
〰 Layers have been shed. Time to MOVE around in this new skin with a sense of lightness, CONFIDENCE and flexibility. What are you waiting for? The possibilities are INFINITE. 🐍🌀🙏🏻🌀🐍 Thanks snake guide! #spiritspeaks

Thursday, February 12, 2015
Flow with the River
Letting go of any preconceived ideas of what your life should look like is rather hard. We grow up forming a beautiful picture of what life will look like when we are 25, 30, 49.... What we will have accomplished by then, what kind of job we will have and what our living arrangements will be. We will know what political party to vote for and attend church regularly. We will have our life in order that's for damn sure by the time we are 26. We spend years building our ideal life. Some of us measure it out in coffee spoons- detail after detail. However I was reminded today that it's good to let all of that go from time to time. Trust the process. It's ok if you are 30 and aren't married. It's ok if you lack one college credit before you can be an official grad. It's ok if you identify as a republican and but secretly like Obama. And it is completely fine to feel lost and helpless. It's time to let go and flow with the river of life. Be easy on yourself.
Friday, October 10, 2014
Trail Update: Hikers are back in Tennessee
The East Tennessee tribe is home! We got off trail in Virginia at McAfee Knob with plans to complete the remaining section of the Appalachian Trail later in the Spring. Dad’s medicine was freezing and it was just too dang cold to get up in the mornings. So for now I will consider 1, 400+ miles on the AT an impressive achievement!
I sat down to write a post about our 4 month journey and how it feels to be off the trail. Although, I still can’t put into words what it's like to travel over a thousand miles on foot with everything you need to survive on your back. Plus, what it’s like hiking with family!
All I can say is that I am changed. In many ways, I am changed. I no longer look at the sky the same or the mountains the same. I even look at people differently. I feel connected to earth and long to wake up with the sun. I believe in living sustainable more than ever now. The earth is precious and we need to take care of her. My dreams and passions seem to burn more. Life is too short to be unhappy. It really is true how people say that life experiences can shape and mold you.
Adjusting back to “normal life" gives me a bit of anxiety. It’s strange to imagine life without camp chores, sore ankles or counting miles. I know I will miss the A.T., especially the simplicity of trail life, but I am so excited to start a new adventure.
The Appalachian Trail will always have a piece of my heart. Thanks to everyone who made this trip great. I am forever grateful. I hope that our trip has inspired many others to branch out and take outdoor adventures!
Friday, September 19, 2014
Half Way Home!
Hi guys,
We passed the offical midpoint nearly 100 miles ago; however, it didn’t sink in until we reached Harpers Ferry and signed in at the Appalachian Trail Conservacy Headquarters. We each got our photo taken for the official ATC register and walked out feeling on top of the world.
Woo, what an adventure we are living! We are across the Mason-Dixon Line and more over half way to Georgia! Fourteen states down and four to go.
It feels good to be half way, but it feels even better to spend some much needed time with our family!
The McDermids and Adams took on Harpers Ferry, WV and Washington, DC this week! Oh, yes. It was an adventure all on its own. Big thanks to Stacey’s uncle Cecil for letting us crash at his place and making us feel at home.
Being in the South and knowing that we are so close to home is comforting and exciting. Our spirits are higher than ever. Our bodies are rested and feeling rejuvenated from the time off. We will be entering the Shenandoah National Forest tomorrow- something I've waited years to experience.
On a more serious note . . . Tuck has been treated for Lyme Disease. He contracted it through a tick bite on his chest and started showing symptoms about a week after the bite. We took him to an Urgent Care and sure enough, it was Lymes. Thankfully, it was still in the early stages. Please keep him in your thoughts and prayers for a quick recovery!
All for now. It’s way passed my bed time. Thanks for caring about our adventure.
Happy trails,
Amber
Sunday, August 31, 2014
Trail Update: Mid Atlantic Recap
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