You think I'm wishy washy,
complicating and confusing.
Consistant decoding of my behavior
has got you choosing.

Should you continue to make logic of my creative mess,
causing you to be cautious, worry and stress?

Or guard your heart
and guard your pride,
break our connection apart
and push me to the side?

But I want you to know I'm falling hard,
I'm falling fast.
Praying you let down your guard
so this feeling can last.

I realize I'm no better than the rest.
I'm loosing sleep
competing with the best of the best.
but I take a risk, I take the leap.

and wait for you
to be on the same page with me.

This was such a fun experience for me. My sister, Lexi and I were not prepared at all- both of us were wearing teva sandals. But we are always up for a spontaneous adventure! A steep vertical climb up, we made it to the top. The falls were beautiful with sun shining through the water. Climbing down was a bit difficult though. Lexi had a nasty fall down a slick rock which knocked my feet out from under me, causing me to land on her. She decided to loose the sandals and hike the rest barefoot. Moments later, I trip over a boulder and fall head first onto another rock.

Several bruises, insect bites, and a swollen ankle but it was all worth it. Can't wait to bring the pops!

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"The entire area between Newfound Gap Road and Fort Harry is one large boulder field through which a small stream runs directly from the cliff. Many paths zigzag through the field but no single trail leads up to Fort Harry. The best course is to cross to the right side of the stream and proceed up the slope either by scrambling or picking a way through the boulders. Away from the stream, the boulders are less concentrated and the hiking is a bit easier. Fort Harry is only about a quarter mile away..."

Smiles with no roots,
a theme of deception.
Bleeding souls and confused guts,
pain distracted by sunshine and music.
But emotional attachment always wins.

Resort to pills for happiness.
Everyone is watching, waiting
for you to fall.
Keep strong.
Repair your foundation with dreams,
your family name and roller coasters.

Still... you cant shake the feelings.
You're fated to pretend.
Crippled inside,
just a prisoner of a heavy soul.

6 months ago I was a different girl.
6 months ago I had a fiance.
6 months ago I lived with my parents.
6 months ago I worked 40 hours a week.
6 months ago I did not know how to "go with the flow."
6 months ago I had never touched alcohol.
6 months ago I did not have an open mind.
6 months ago I knew exactly where my life was going.

During these 6 months, yes, I have lost more of my innocence but I have gained experience. And with true knowledge and understanding I have changed my perspective. No longer am I on the fast track, I'm takin' it easy. Why rush through college, work for the man, get married, spend all your money on diapers, and then look back and only remember yourself stressing to get ahead? Now I have a life goal to live free. I want to experience all the good and bad life has to offer. Forget my planner, instead I want to live for the moment. Less work, more play. No more saving 80% of my paycheck, let's go buy some liquor and zaxby's! Goodbye relationships, hello independence. I don't no where my life is headed, no worries, I'm enjoying the ride and takin' it easy.

Thank you  Bonnaroo for channeling my inner peace child years ago. Mind, body and soul- all open for new experience