I have a lot of things to say.

I think I'll start saying them... yep. Let's start with this little truth for all of my introverted, shy pals...

I grew up "the shy one" - being consistently scared of people. At times my timidness was so bad that my sister or best friend would have to speak for me. I was always, secretly living in fear. Scared of hurting, disappointing, or making others feel uncomfortable. Sound familiar? ( I've also developed a really good "I don't care" attitude, but really I always care. ) I'm really good at observing and noticing the subtleties. I have the ability to tell people exactly what they want to hear. I'm like expert people pleaser. It comes in handy sometimes. Actually, I love my spider senses of knowing what people need to hear. But I've learned that people pleasing doesn't always help. Actually, most times, the truth is hands-down the most healing. Even when it hurts. So let's do ourselves a favor and just say what we want to say. . . In the kindest, most compassionate, most understanding, empathetic way possible. ☺️ we all got problems. Woo ... ok.... that was enough for like the year. HA. #babysteps #thereisalioninside 🌋🌋🌋 

photo of how I look 90% of the time by sister, Lexi B Adams. #onamission

Stillness in movement. This has been my spiritual practice. 🏄‍♀️

Finding little moments to take in a big belly breath and chant my mantra. Today, River and I went for a walk in the park. As soon as he fell asleep, I desperately wanted to park the stroller and plop down on a bench to catch up on emails, read, write, meditate, really anything instead of worrying and focusing all of my attention on him.... but I knew if I stopped walking that he would wake up... because he always does. This ain’t my first time around the block. So instead, I tried my best to find stillness and peace in the walking. It felt weird. But I knew it was my only choice.

This has been my daily practice.

I hear my Guides, my ancestors, my God calling me. I hear them saying: “It doesn’t matter where you are or who you are with or what you are doing... just show up. We need to talk about things.” So I keep walking. And try to calm my mind. And I keep showing up. As much as I want to sit in a quiet little spot by the water, with my eyes closed all alone... it’s just not gonna happen right now. So I find my stillness at the back of a stroller in the midst of strangers walking their dogs. I listen deep and I hear my angels say “My child, you are an ocean with crashing, powerful waves... but even waves rest. We are here for you. Lean into us whenever you want. Keep walking.” 🙏🏻 

If you, too, are seeking stillness and peace , I hope you can find it wherever you are. #thoughtsontheway#beherenow #trying #dailypractice#momlife

Here I am.

In this moment

and I can't help but feel the pull

of every women wondering

if someone else is out there.

The shy little kid in me

wants to hide. "Shhhh, be quiet . . .

don't move. They might find us."

I know this little girl is trying to protect me.

But the pull is strong

and so am I.

I have things to say to these women.

I have things to share. Like,

Hi, I'm out here and I feel alone, too.

I'm hurting and I'm confused and struggling.

The shy little girl flinches- waiting

for someone to laugh or criticize.

But no one does.

Instead, she feels Love.

A multitude of heavenly hosts coming to her side.

She feels safe again.

And at peace for

she doesn't have to hide any longer.

Lost. Seeking. Hiding. Found.