Woke up to falling leaves. 🍁

Lots of anxiety swirling about as we are about 4 weeks away from giving birth to our baby.

Thoughts.

So many thoughts. How am I going to run or manage my business and nurture a tiny human and give myself time to rest and heal??? We are an hour away from the birth center... will we make it in time??? Will I be strong enough?? I still don’t reaaaaallly understand how a 7- 10 lb. living thing is going to come out of me... We still have about a million and one things to do at the house... (like get hot water and install a toilet.)When will we find the time to accomplish ALL THE THINGS and still be good business owners, partners, friends and parents??? Is “life balance” a real obtainable thing? 🤔 And what the heck does life feel like / look like after giving birth? 🔮

Anyway~ the leaves had some things to say about letting it all go and trusting in the process. Thanks leaves. Praying for all my soon-to-be and new mamma friends out there. I’m riding the wave with ya sisters! Here’s to staying on top and not drowning in fears, doubts and insecurities! 🤙🏻🏄🏻‍♀️🤱🏻🤱🏼🤱🏽🤱🏾��🏿#wegotthis #motherhood #beinghuman#lifethoughts #talkingtoleaves#thewildunknown

We did it! We are officially cabin owners- surrounded by 27 acres of forest land that is abundant with plant and animal life, trails and running water! We have a lot of work to do before baby gets here; but, we are so happy to have finally found a place to call home and start our family. Nesting awaits!

along for the ride. 🦋
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Feels like one of my biggest challenges in this lifetime is to let go of control. Oh and self acceptance. Oh and perfectionism. But hey, these all go hand in hand. Just trying to be a better me, ya know?? Anyway, we all came here to learn- I’ve been in the deep end of deepening my relationship with my body and it has been ... well ... . layers and layers of learning and trusting and loving. And this pregnancy journey feels like icing on the cake!! I’m just going with the flow and enjoying the ride. LOVING the freedom and ease that comes along with trusting that your body knows exactly what to do as long as you nourish and love it! And move. Bodies like to move. 💃🏻 #bodylove#hereiam #pregnancydiary

I love this. BUT these words can also be my poison.

Here are some rambles for my inner critic and my fellow recovering perfectionists who strive so hard to meet those grand, beautiful expectations- YOU ARE ENOUGH. We are enough. Just simply being and showing up and trying is enough. We live under tremendous pressure these days- To be better, to achieve, to please, to fit in, to stand out, to be strong while being vulnerable. We are even pressured to live in the moment. It's so damn overwhelming and confusing.

Ahhhh, how does a regular ole gal do it? It just doesn't seem possible.

I want to be "all the things" all of the time. Enough is never enough for this inner achiever! We must push and push until we get to the destination. We have the grit and determination, right? Haha, until we burnout, have a panic attack and find ourselves eating too much pizza asking ourselves if we will ever be enough. We must remember to quiet that little ambitious voice from time to time and be proud of the days work.

We have to stop doing this to each other, folks. Demanding more from one another, whatever that may be. I've recently become aware of how much I expect of my family, friends and even strangers. I'm constantly being the food police with my family. "Mom, you didn't buy organic...." and always over criticizing my friends' creative projects. "Ehhh ... it could be better if you made this adjustment". It comes from a place of love, but lacking grace and compassion. Maybe, Mom didn't buy all organic this time but she did make sure there were a plethora of fruits and veggies. And yeah the little tweak to the website could have made a difference but was it really worth killing the mood of an excited finished project? We have to meet each other in the middle & expand our awareness to see how hard we are all trying.

Next time you catch yourself thinking about how it/he/she could be better, different or anything other than what is, just shoot love beams from your being. Let's see what happens. 💛more love, less fuss. 💛

practice round- (boyfriend wearing all black...again) Does this look ok? Me: I love love love love love love love it!!! ❤️❤️ (insert sound effects off love beams) ⚡️⚡️⚡️