This year I have big plans (like usual) but if you are reading this then you can help me succeed! One of my New Years Resolutions is to start a ripple effect [this blog].  All you have to do is commit to reading this blog, maybe give your girlfriends a little taste. Support me support you. Hey, maybe this can be your resolution this year. . .

If any of these topics are up  your alley then Pink Medicine is for you!

1. Finding Love.
2. Keeping Love.
3. Self-Discovery.
4. Dreams vs. Daydreams
5. Knowing Happiness.
6. Body Image.
7. Environment.
8. Depression.
9. Family.
10. College.
11. Lessons Learned.

I’m still trying to find my way around WordPress so look forward to design changes as the year goes on! All for now, let’s get the medicine to the people!

I want to be inspired, intuitive, original and unique.

I want to be passionate, true to my feelings and uniquely authentic.

I am sensitive, expressive and spiritual.

I have problems with being social.

Under stress I am moody and overly emotional.
I am growing and still learning about myself at age 21.

if you have a sister
than you know how it feels
to share your last piece of cake,
your brand new shoes,
and tears from heartache.

if you have a sister
than you understand the word sacrifice
nothing is worth more than her,
not even your own life.

if you have a sister
than you are trusted to understand
when Mom and dad don't.
she needs you to hold her hand.

if you have a sister
than you know what it's like
to lay on the beach for a weekend get-away
just because one of you had a bad day.

if you have a sister
than you know.
you know what's on her mind
before she even drops a line.
you know her deepest gut feeling
even if you are miles apart,
because if you have a sister
you know what its like to share one heart

Dear Emotions,

well you did it. You made me ignore any logical sense last night. You got my heart to override my mind. You destroyed my nicely built walls protecting me from the glass "let's just be friends" splinters that dig themselves into my soul. You let secrets surface, now I'm vulnerable... and open with an unguarded heart.

And I want to thank you.

Halfway between high noon and sunset.
Halfway between the listening and daydreaming.

She's looking for love...

The way she always does, laced up sneakers, drenched in Halloween, pretending to be occupied by paisley colored thoughts.

And there it is, that familiar feeling
sweaty palms, butterflies, undeniable attraction.

A splash of adrenaline quickly turns into a wave of clarity.
She was falling...for him...head over heels.

Just in time for the stars to watch.

Drenched in vanilla,
waist-deep in thought.
Just a hopeless romantic,
capturing life in snapshots.

Eyes of dreams
a vision of Love,
the kind the world finds obscene,
the kind people let go of.

But you can't give up.
and you can't let go.
It takes time
for Love to grow.
And it takes Heart
to touch another's soul.

Keep Hope through silence.
Keep the butterflies alive.
Practice Patience,
it's the only way they'll survive.

You think I'm wishy washy,
complicating and confusing.
Consistant decoding of my behavior
has got you choosing.

Should you continue to make logic of my creative mess,
causing you to be cautious, worry and stress?

Or guard your heart
and guard your pride,
break our connection apart
and push me to the side?

But I want you to know I'm falling hard,
I'm falling fast.
Praying you let down your guard
so this feeling can last.

I realize I'm no better than the rest.
I'm loosing sleep
competing with the best of the best.
but I take a risk, I take the leap.

and wait for you
to be on the same page with me.

This was such a fun experience for me. My sister, Lexi and I were not prepared at all- both of us were wearing teva sandals. But we are always up for a spontaneous adventure! A steep vertical climb up, we made it to the top. The falls were beautiful with sun shining through the water. Climbing down was a bit difficult though. Lexi had a nasty fall down a slick rock which knocked my feet out from under me, causing me to land on her. She decided to loose the sandals and hike the rest barefoot. Moments later, I trip over a boulder and fall head first onto another rock.

Several bruises, insect bites, and a swollen ankle but it was all worth it. Can't wait to bring the pops!

📷

"The entire area between Newfound Gap Road and Fort Harry is one large boulder field through which a small stream runs directly from the cliff. Many paths zigzag through the field but no single trail leads up to Fort Harry. The best course is to cross to the right side of the stream and proceed up the slope either by scrambling or picking a way through the boulders. Away from the stream, the boulders are less concentrated and the hiking is a bit easier. Fort Harry is only about a quarter mile away..."

Smiles with no roots,
a theme of deception.
Bleeding souls and confused guts,
pain distracted by sunshine and music.
But emotional attachment always wins.

Resort to pills for happiness.
Everyone is watching, waiting
for you to fall.
Keep strong.
Repair your foundation with dreams,
your family name and roller coasters.

Still... you cant shake the feelings.
You're fated to pretend.
Crippled inside,
just a prisoner of a heavy soul.

6 months ago I was a different girl.
6 months ago I had a fiance.
6 months ago I lived with my parents.
6 months ago I worked 40 hours a week.
6 months ago I did not know how to "go with the flow."
6 months ago I had never touched alcohol.
6 months ago I did not have an open mind.
6 months ago I knew exactly where my life was going.

During these 6 months, yes, I have lost more of my innocence but I have gained experience. And with true knowledge and understanding I have changed my perspective. No longer am I on the fast track, I'm takin' it easy. Why rush through college, work for the man, get married, spend all your money on diapers, and then look back and only remember yourself stressing to get ahead? Now I have a life goal to live free. I want to experience all the good and bad life has to offer. Forget my planner, instead I want to live for the moment. Less work, more play. No more saving 80% of my paycheck, let's go buy some liquor and zaxby's! Goodbye relationships, hello independence. I don't no where my life is headed, no worries, I'm enjoying the ride and takin' it easy.

Thank you  Bonnaroo for channeling my inner peace child years ago. Mind, body and soul- all open for new experience

Finally. It has happened. And it feels so good. I'm sure I feel almost as a junky does when he gets his fix after a long sober week. My mind is rejuvenated and my body has energy. Some people feed off of others and get energy from socializing, not me. People actually exhaust me. Day after day they have been here. But finally I'm alone. Just me and my thoughts and at the moment I'm on this amazing "free your mind" high.

Listening to: Copeland