It’s the wee hours of the night. River is asleep on my lap and I don’t want to move him just yet... so here goes...
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Man, I’ve been wanting to express my gratitude for all of these people... but I am at a loss for words... I don’t know if it’s the hormones but I start to cry just thinking about how much love and help have been poured over me and Josh and River these past few weeks. Natural child birth followed by a week in the NICU and trying to navigate this new role have been the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I truly, seriously, without a doubt could not have gotten through it without our family. *especially my parents who drove back and forth from TN everyday to be by my side.* These are the times that wake and shape you— I am very aware of that and divinely reminded of the love we have in our lives. And that it is ok to accept help. I treasure these people so much. May I always remember how much love and help was given to us during these first days of River’s life. I wholeheartedly love each of you so freaking much. That’s all the words I can manage to string together. LOVE, FAMILY, GRATITUDE, THANKS, BLESSINGS and more LOVE. I am humbled.

Woke up to falling leaves. 🍁

Lots of anxiety swirling about as we are about 4 weeks away from giving birth to our baby.

Thoughts.

So many thoughts. How am I going to run or manage my business and nurture a tiny human and give myself time to rest and heal??? We are an hour away from the birth center... will we make it in time??? Will I be strong enough?? I still don’t reaaaaallly understand how a 7- 10 lb. living thing is going to come out of me... We still have about a million and one things to do at the house... (like get hot water and install a toilet.)When will we find the time to accomplish ALL THE THINGS and still be good business owners, partners, friends and parents??? Is “life balance” a real obtainable thing? 🤔 And what the heck does life feel like / look like after giving birth? 🔮

Anyway~ the leaves had some things to say about letting it all go and trusting in the process. Thanks leaves. Praying for all my soon-to-be and new mamma friends out there. I’m riding the wave with ya sisters! Here’s to staying on top and not drowning in fears, doubts and insecurities! 🤙🏻🏄🏻‍♀️🤱🏻🤱🏼🤱🏽🤱🏾��🏿#wegotthis #motherhood #beinghuman#lifethoughts #talkingtoleaves#thewildunknown

We did it! We are officially cabin owners- surrounded by 27 acres of forest land that is abundant with plant and animal life, trails and running water! We have a lot of work to do before baby gets here; but, we are so happy to have finally found a place to call home and start our family. Nesting awaits!

along for the ride. 🦋
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Feels like one of my biggest challenges in this lifetime is to let go of control. Oh and self acceptance. Oh and perfectionism. But hey, these all go hand in hand. Just trying to be a better me, ya know?? Anyway, we all came here to learn- I’ve been in the deep end of deepening my relationship with my body and it has been ... well ... . layers and layers of learning and trusting and loving. And this pregnancy journey feels like icing on the cake!! I’m just going with the flow and enjoying the ride. LOVING the freedom and ease that comes along with trusting that your body knows exactly what to do as long as you nourish and love it! And move. Bodies like to move. 💃🏻 #bodylove#hereiam #pregnancydiary